Post by jaydn on Feb 8, 2008 17:12:43 GMT -5
[/size][/center][/blockquote]Basics
o o c n a m e Katie
r p i n g t i m e almost everyday
o t h e r c h a r a c t e r s none so far
D r o w n i n g In A Sea Of V o d k a
Gellar, Sarah Michelle
f u l l n a m e Jaydn Harmony Lane
g e n d e r Female
a g e & g r a d e 15 Sophmore
s e x u a l i t y Straight
p e r s o n a l i t y Jaydn is compassionate and empathetic and often sticks up for people. But if you point out that she has problems you'll see a completely different person. She can also be aggresive, mean, sadistic, and a total pregnant dog. She isn't the person you want to mess with when she gets like this and she cannot stand perfect people. She often generalizes people into catagories and make up her mind that that is what they are.
She is sometimes arrogent and always stubborn. In spite of this she isn't full of herself and see's herself as being less of what she really is. She is a total perfectionist and never thinks she's good enough. She smiles alot but it is usually fake and she is rarely truly happy. She is a great liar and actress though and can make anyone believe almost anything. She is paranoid and doesn't show her real personality because of her fear that no one will like her. Instead she becomes what people want her to be and she plays the social chamileon, blending in with whoever she is with.
She can stay angry for months and can hold a grudge for longer though you'll think she's over it. She is easily obsessed with revenge and s but never forgets. She is loyal and trustwothy though she never trusts anyone with her secrets. She sometimes gets depressed and stays like that for days just beiong apart from the rest of the world.
l i k e s 10+
- Boys
- Control
- Cats
- Movies
- Books
- Art
- Music
- Alchohol
- Dogs
- Clothes
d i s l i k e s 10+
- Helplessness
- Food
- Self rightous people
- Worry
- Work
- Problems
- Bugs
- Dark
- Dirtyness
s t r e n g t h s & W e a k n e s s 2+ of each
Strengths : Thick skined and independent
Weaknesses : Doesn't trust and is too hard on herself
f e a r s & a d d i c t i o n s 2+ of each
Fears : Death, being alone
Addictions : not eating (anorexic), drinking
f a m i l y Mother : Judi Lane , Father : Patrick Lane, Sister : Jessica Lane
p e t s up to three small critters
Cat : Trixy
h i s t o r y 4+ paragraphs
Jaydn was born into your average well off family and had a picture perfect childhood. She was Daddy's little girl and her mother's Barbie doll since she was born. As a child her mother entered her into beauty pagents and compititions which she usually won giving her the sense of pride that being the best brings. She was used to being the center of her parents world and addicted to winning. That was when her sister was born.
Jessica came into the world when Jaydn was 8 and it seriously messed with her. THe younger sister was born with a blood condition that required her to have almost constant attention. For Jaydn who was used to being applauded for everything she did, the sudden lack of attention she got was a shock. She drew back into herself and felt abandoned and rejected. Jaydn finally decieded to win people over again and started pushing herself to do more and more things that would make her parents proud. She regained the attention and was back to being the perfect daughter but she never got it out of her head that it was Jessica's fault.
She started using the same techniques on other people as well adn soon had a million friends and fans. She made herself seem perfect 100 percent of the time and kept up the facade that everything was fine with her. It wasn't though. The pressure of wanting to win everything and feeling like she had to got to her and she spiraled down fast even though no one knew. She had no friends that she could trust and was unable to talk to her parents about her problems because of her desperatness to make them love her. She started drinking, cutting herself, and stopped eating.
Drinking was a way to forget about her problems while fitting in with the crowd. She rarely got completely drunk in front of other people for fear of what might slip out of her mouth if she wasn't careful. She loved the buzz and the way that nothing bothered her after a few shots. It made her feel invincible and that was rare for her. The cutting started as a way to vent the emotions she couldn't show and then escalated to a habit. It became part of her regular routine and started happening more and more as she fell deeper and deeper into her problems. Jaydn thought that she wasn't nearly as perfect as she could be and saw her weight as one of her main problems. She thought that if she was a size 0 instead of a 2 more people would like her and she would be prettier. So she started a diet that she added to more and more. It started as a reasonable but unnessasary restiction and evolved into an addiction. The feeling of being in control and having the power to refrain from something that everyone else had to have made her feel strong.
At first no one knew about any of her problems and when the signs started to appear they ignored them. She was Jaydn, there couldn't be anything wrong with the perfect girl. But soon she had a breakdown from the rest of the pressure that she couldn't relieve with her addictions and was sent to a therapist. The doctor was able to see what her parents couldn't or wouldn't. Jaydn was an anorexic with addiction problems. She was sent to a rehabilitation clinic where she got herself back on her feet. Now everyone pretends that it didn't happen and that she is back to normal but that's not entirely true. She is trying to stoesp but as the old conflicts come back up it becomes harder and harder to resist temptation. She has slipped up several times so far and will again.
o t h e r anything else
thats about all I can think of
t h e s e c r e t w o r d
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S a m p l e P o s t
Jaydn sat on the fire escape and leaned her head against the cool iron ladder. She had gotten tired of being stuck inside and had come out to get some of the night time air. She closed her eyes and breathed, relaxing against the metal she was leaning on. She wasn't what you would call claustraphobic, but every now and then she would feel too shut up by the walls. It really didn't help that she couldn't leave the hotel. She needed space sometimes and she couldn't get that inside the hotel.
She looked up at the sky and smiled. She had missed the stars. They used to be half the reason she stayed up so late. At home, she didn't do much of anything with her friends until afterdark. Half the fun of whatever they were doing was sneaking out. She wondered what they were doing right now and thought about calling them. No, that wouldn't work. She would just interrupt their after hour activities. She looked down the fire escape and grimaced. It was a great view but she didn't really care to be this high up. As her eyes adjusted to the darkness more and more, her smile grew a little bigger. She couldn't understand why anyone would be afraid of the dark. Without it you could never see the stars.